The Last Day of 26

At the beginning of each year I spend a few days the age i was for the most part of the previous year. Tomorrow I will be older than I have ever been before. I can say that truthfully of any day, but tomorrow feels different. I am going to be officially 27 years old. 3 years shy of 30. ten year high school reunion around the corner. (I do not intend to attend any reunion, but just knowing that it could be planned is weird.)

I should make a list of 26 things that are true today.

1. my toes are cold.
2. my hair is curly. I washed it today.
3. I never thought I would live in the midwest, but I do.
4. there is snow outside.
5. leather is probably better than synthetic leather for me. and maybe the cow.
6. if i drink too much coffee i get a stomach ache.
7. i like to dance but i am not good at it.
8. i want to live a life out-of-the-ordinary.
9. i want a plant to live on my desk this year, to love and to water.
10. i prefer windows that get a lot of light, curtains that are open or see-through.
11. Elvis was born today, 1935.
12. I have always been under the impression that Gypsy Rose Lee (burlesque entertainer) shared a birthday with me, however wikipedia says Jan 8 like elvis, and IMDB says feb. 9. I no longer know what to believe.
13. some one is making me lunch today.
14. I am stuck on 14 and reading about Gypsy Rose Lee's life.
15. Sometimes I wonder what adventure means, and if it always must include climbing fences.
16. I wore three pairs of socks yesterday and plan the same for today.
17. I have been away from Indiana for almost a month and I miss it.
18. I also miss by bed.
19. At nineteen I was in college, undergrad.
20. Chicago has cute apartments.
21. I haven't written poetry in a looong time.
22. One of my 2010 goals is to go to Louisville KY
23. I like tea. Black tea, green tea, Rooibos.
24. I don't like dogs or cats in general. I like certain few dogs I have met and a certain few cats.
25. I hope good things for many people.
26. 27 isn't old!

The great mystic John of the Cross wrote, ‘Love is the fruit of faith, that is to say, of darkness.'

List time again

A List of Random Deep and Not-so-Deep Thoughts:

2. I watched a movie called 4 months, 3 weeks, 2 days.. Though not terribly graphic, it is one of the most painful movies I have watched. It is painful in how un-extraordinary the circumstances are. It is important movie in understanding woman's rights.

3. In the past few hours I have been having an internal freak out. I have realized it is because I have done two communicative things toward - and in one day. And it makes me feel like pomegranate seeds out of their peel. But as a good friend reminded me. No biggie, I can handle it. Yes. for truth it is not a big deal.

4. I am tired now.

5. I want to think of deep thoughts.

6. I used the word snarky too many times today.

7. I have thought of what I want to make for a card to send in the mail.

9. Goodnight.

10. I feel like I should have one more thing to say.

Googling yr name / Parrellel Universes

Do you ever google your name? Yes.

Today I googled mine and found a parallel universe blog:

Alessandra's Adventures in Santa Ana

Not There Yet

June 28 2005

Its about two months until i will be moving to Santa Ana. I've been checking out the place on maps. Its not as far south as I first thought. I am still wonderinng what kind of job to get. I think I will just apply to all the ones I find and see what happens. Its tough but good to learn to trust Jesus in this new environment.

For a minute I thought there was some other Alessandra with my zodiac sign on blogger, but all signs pointed this to being me. I couldn't remember what on earth, if this was me, I was talking about.

Then I remembered that for a minute I was going to be on the Santa Ana SP team before that did not happen. How different would have my life had been if it had occurred. Reminds me of some recent fiction I have read.


I am thankful for my life. for my school. where I am today. I am thankful for a lot of things. even the essay I should be writing and stories I should be grading.

ahh!

relying on cliches because i'm tired

This week has had its majors ups and downs. Way Downs. Way ups. I cried for about 24 hours (sadly, this is a literal statement) regarding a paper I received back from a professor. B+ in grad school means Fail. You suck. Drop the Class. However, I have decided to accept this grade. I told the prof, I learned a great deal from writing this paper. I need now to turn my attention to poetry. It's just frustrating you can not see what I have learned, and the great value I have in this class from my paper.

She accepted this resolution and I am not rewriting a paper which would be like torture to re-write. pointless torture at that.

That was the extreme low.

the extreme high was tonight's poetry reading. I proved something new to myself tonight, which may sound weird, but feels earth shattering to me:

I can read poetry out loud, my poetry out loud, well. and I enjoy it. And it feels important.

Revelatory even.

good night.

sometimes

somethings make me saddish. no raddish will do.

this is one.

i am tired. goodnight.

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