I did breathe today

And it made me happy.

J__ C__ L___'s name. 10 minute quickwrite assigned by G___. These blanks are both my housemates and i know how to fill in the blanks on this webpage, but i dont know how to fill them in theory. Theory is not really what i mean. There is just a lot of blank space sometimes between people evenw hen you get to know them really well. They always say something surprising, Do something unexpected. Hurt you in a way you did know you could be hurt. Hurt them when you are not even thinking. Love you in a way you didnt know you needed to be loved. Kinda like yoga. i have been doing yoga some lately. And this one teacher guy says doing yoga is like making love to your muscles or like giving yourself a better massage than any one else could give. only i have the power to massage my kidneys. JCL wrote me an email to day that's title was WE NEED TO TALK. My heart leapt to my stomach or the other way around because i wondered how i had hurt her feelings. There are always ways i am learning to hurt people. I guess i am not learning to hurt people. I just do hurt people and then i need to learn how not to. How to be kind caring and considerate. How not to think about myself all the time. But that is hard because i have learned to be the main character in this story of my life. but i am learning how to rewrite certain scenes so they are not all about me. like the one in the kitchen where i was crying on the floor. I know that i was not really alone in that moment. So i have not talked much about JCLs name yet and i think that 10 minutes is almost up. But let me tell you a story. A black boy named this picture he drew that was supposed to be a chinese gargoyle and he named in Quan Chi Lee. Because that is what he thinks of when he thinks Chinese. I once had a Chinese freind wth the Last name LEe. Her family owned a chinese restuarant, where i always hoped I would be given free food. Dont worry JCL i know that you are not Chinese. This one is for you.