a rambly sentence

i have been living in a run on sentence
i have added a few conjunctions and transitive verbs
but mostly i have been sliding ungrammatically over commas
like an intertube ride at a waterpark

When we started this with a sentence we pretended to have structure, but mostly i had no idea what i wanted. i just wanted to get away.

i am eavesdropping on a pair of people who are starting a new business
this is evidence of the sliding around
i am afraid of waste
i recycle all the paper products, plastic bottles and
i ate the eggs and the bread they set before as the token woman who actually eats food.

inside the plastic bottles thrown into the green bins were my heart strings
i cut them off so i could recycle them.

the lady starting the new business is making me hate her
she talks too loudly is too self assured
wearing bangles that chuckle with glee at her success

these moments that i am not at work are semi-precious gems
i just hope she knows how expensive she is
she is the only benefit
the ocean views, the blackberries, the breathing and the sing
her worries, our prayers, back rubs, she made me sing in front of drunk people
i sang to the trees because no one else will remember
i feel a bit nibbled on.
i want my fingers back. i think buying shoes will bring me independence
but i probably cant not walk in them
modern day foot binding

the song came on the radio:

"lovely day, its going to be a lovely day"

POV, FOR
consider me these things, point of view and frame of reference
i have nothing to complain about
i had a great time
i went to me drive in movie theatre
i saw people i love

though people can suffer from disease of too many words and hurtful remarks much more than trees and time zones, trees and time zones did not create me, do not hug me the same way arms and a brain can

i am okay with not holding anything in my hands

but i cant smile just yet.