At 6am on a standard wednesday morning, i know who I am. i am a tired 25 year old who must pull herself out of bed to shower/dress/bus or bike to work by 7.30 am. I am generally on time, but more so lately, i am some one who is okay with being a little late.
at noon on that standard wednesday, i know who I am. I am hungry, if i have packed my lunch I plan if i should heat it in the upstairs break room, or the downstairs break room. I think about plastic forks and my carbon footprints. If i did not have it together on that standard monday morning, i am someone who will think about the cheapest thing to eat, or how to possibly get a free lunch out of someone who makes more money than me.
At 4.30 on the standard wednesday, i know who i am. I am tired, my brain a little frazzled from staring at the computer and transfering numbers from here to there and counting apps and assisting and phones and coworkers. on the bus or bike ride home i may be planning in my head what i need to do for xyz or what to make for dinner, or who i should call or pondering graffiti, or remembering the time i saw so and so on the bus.
Tomorrow is not a standard wednesday. i will not wake up with the need to head to work, I have much to do, but its not related to HMOs and PPOs. I am packing, I am heading out of town, I am leaving all that is familiar. I am leaving "I know who I am." With a new surrounding, i wont only be discovering language and foriegn lands, I will be discovering a new me.
this scares me...will i be disappointed?
2 comments:
yay! bon voyage! I love you alessandra. I love what God is doing in your life right now. And I love the awareness that you have about it. It makes me want to be more aware, and ask "who am i on a wednesday morning?" I am so excited to hear about your travels.
It makes me crazily happy too, Alessandra. Tears well into your mother's eye watching her daughter take hold of adventure, and step out by faith.
Love to you my dear, your mother
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