2 dreams and a meditations

1. I was sitting on the grass with Joyful Joyful who happened to be accepted to IU as a fiction writer. I asked if I could see her fiction and she said not yet. We looked up and these things that looked like birds but moved like helicopters were above us. lots of them. circling? flying? floating? Then a few began to fall. As they approached us they fell faster. It felt almost dangerous but they didnt land on us, only near us. It turned out they were gigantic dandelion seeds. (those little white puffs, but h-u-g-e).

2. Tomorrow was monday and I was supposed to ship out to Iraq. For some reason my and my sister had signed up to be in the army reserves earlier and now it was time. I was sad, anxious and mad. My sister had already left, but i needed to take care of a few things, including sending out a prayer request to all my friends. but i couldn't because first the computer keyboard was missing keys, then i only had a keyboard and no computer, then there was no internet. I was talking to some boy who was also shipping out. I was so angry that I had to go to Iraq, but then I said, why should angry, Hispanics and other minorities are already going to Iraq, why should i be any different. then i thought it was weird that i said the word hispanics instead of Latinos. But then I thought I just dont want to die. I need people to pray for me because it will be the only way to survive. As I was asking people to pray for me I was afraid they would not really pray for me, they way I had not really been praying about the Iraqi war because it had not been personal, it had not been my life until now.

3. Psalm 119. Not only is this the longest psalm, the writer seems genuinely desire to obey the Lords righteous Law which is peace-, life- and joy-giving. But he also asks the Lord to help him understand so he is able to follow the Lord's precepts. He also admits he is a sheep that has gone astray, that he has taken his life into his own hands. I really appreciate his desire to follow God, they way he knows it is the path of righteousness, joy, delight, life, and eternal life, but the way he also seems to be tripping over his enemies, tripping over his own wordly flaws. The one thing that never changes through-out the psalm is the face that he knows the law of Lord are his delight, his salvation, unchanging and wonderful. thank you psalm writer.