New year. New birthday. Hope. These three things are on my mind. I am seated inside my mother's car in her boyfriends house's driveway. Odd place to blog. But this is where I find myself. Darn. the battery is going to die soon.
New Year: So much has happened this year. Jan 1 2008 i had not yet been to guate, not been accepted to grad school, not quit my job, not moved to indiana, never had taught undergraduates, had not written stories and poems. So much has changed and grown this year.
New Birthday: I saw the curious case of Benjamin Button. I enjoyed the freaking long film. It made me think about aging. Something i have thought about already as i approach my 26th birthday in couple weeks. 26 sounds so much older than 25. I am over the hump of the twenties marching down to my 30s. The only reasonable thought I can think, is thank you for my life. Thank you for my life. Thank you for the years, days minutes and seconds, breathes held and breathes released. I used to be very afraid of 26. My oldest brother died when he was 26. I used feel frantic. trying to learn things as quickly as possible as my time was limited. that fear has faded. I am not so much in a rush. but i remember that fear. my brother was so much older than me. he was married and had a 3 year old child. I will not fear wrinkles, grey hair, singleness. I will not fear these things. My mom surfs everyday. She is an example to me of thriving and living at any age. I can only hope to be like her a little more every day.
Hoping. It is odd that sometimes i find myself hoping
battery dying goodnight.
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