Small things up to easier breathing.

Today I...

1. Rode my bike even though I was feeling lazy and getting back in bed after I took a shower this morning.

2. Found 17 dollars on the ground in two installments. First 5 and 2 ones, than a 10.

3. recovered from telling someone something honest, but hard to say by singing on my bicycle ani lyrics and a medley from Les Miserables and Miss Saigon.

4. Said smart things in both of my classes even though I have failed to keep up with the reading. My comments were still honest to what I had read.

5. Graded a few papers.

6. Watched 2 episodes of project runway (guilty pleasure, don't judge).

7. Made a decision that was hard to make, but now feels good.

8. Almost bought a plane ticket.

9. Rode my bike home before the rain fell down in clumps.

10. Went out to dinner with my roommate.

11. Returned 2 books to the library. 9 to go. I have a class in the library every thursday. at this rate, i will be done in 5 weeks.

12. had a poem workshopped and it went okay.

13. Decided what I want to be for halloween.

14. Figured out my classes for next semester.

15. I feel accomplished.

We need to recognise exhaustion, in ourselves or in others. When Jesus saw it in his disciples, exhausted by all the unscripted coming and going of the crowds (Mark 6:30), he said, ‘Come away by yourselves to a lonely place, and rest a while.' This is the origin of the Christian practice of making a retreat: a lonely place, where we can drop our public mask, reflect on our life, and rest. I do it in a small way whenever I beam in on Sacred Space and devote some time to just God and me.
As you click into Sacred Space, you are answering Jesus' invitation to come away to a deserted place and rest a while. Do not be afraid of being alone. Fear rather the opposite: as the philosopher Blaise Pascal wrote, ‘The sole cause of man's unhappiness is that he does not know how to stay quietly in his room.' Jesus allowed the crowds to surround him and draw comfort from him; but to refresh his own strength he retreated alone into communion with his heavenly father.
Lord, there are times when I want to get away from the crowds, when I feel oppressed by company. If I can reach you in prayer, and know that you are more central to me than my own thoughts, I feel at peace, as the apostles must have felt.

by http://sacredspace.ie/

3 dreams

1. Going to War in Iraq with a young girl. As well as my sister. Who is a singer. Fear. Avoiding gun bullets. Meeting other singers. Performances.

2. Meeting Sufjan. This is the second time this has happened (in dream form). This time he signed a piece of paper because he could not find a picture. Though he had lifted the hood of a car to expose vats of chemicals and developing pictures. He was smoking. I told him to put out his smoke before reaching into the vehicles. No CD. No Picture. He signed the peice of paper. He was performing at a recovery house-way house.

3. Walking home with J. D. M. and S. who are all currently asleep in the house right now. We were on rogers road. it had rained some time earlier. D. is tired and has a backpack. So I carry her shoes when I get to the hill that is not paved and running down with water. We think this will be fun. It is fun to walk up this hill in the mud. We get to the top and there are stairs that lead to a little room with a little door. The room has no floor. YOu much acrobat yourself off the stairs and through the door. Outside the door is a balance beam, which you can walk across. There are two boys and girl on the beam. The boys knock the girl off. She falls. Which is dangerous because the water is not deep, nor is the mud. Before she falls, I see in slow motion, a rock fall and hit the muddy ground. I hold my breath. She falls but she is okay. It is rude/horrible of the boys to make her fall when it could have been so bad.