About the Job...

So my fears came true. I did hate my job and mostly i still do. But that doesnt mean that I am not learning alot of the slow painful lessons that can only be learned slow and painfully... and thats pretty cool..right?

Lesson 1. Endurance. How to get up and find your joy not in your surroundings but in you faith and knowledge that God exists and put you here for a reason

Lesson 2. The Voice. How to sound professional on the phone. I fail pretty often at this. However a lot of the clients like me anyways maybe its because I sound like a nice little girl. And its helpful when nice little girls know about insurance rather than mean uptight people.

Lesson 3. Adults. Adults are this breed of human that you rarely find on a college campus so learning to interact with them can be a full time job. They often get more friendly when you offer chocolate or other free items like coupons. However, you have to learn the "comfortable distance". They don't want to know too much about you because it will be awkward. This is because they are very self protective creatures and are not accustom to sharing on a personal level. For the males specifically, You cant smile too much at them or they might get the wrong idea and start asking you out to dinner and then they want to know you more than you want to know them and thats bad. Thats when you say, "I excited to see my boyfriend this weekend" and "Gee, I have so much work to do, I better get started"

Lesson 4. Time flies when your old like me. Or maybe it just because I spend 40 hours a week in a place that I would never choose. SO I have this calender at work that i cross off the day when its over. I have crossed of 120+ days of a calendar year and only have 8 more months to go until I have worked at ____ for a year. I have learned that 8 more months is not a long time. I already have to start thinking about what kind of job i should start looking for in june so i can quit because i have a good job reason to be quiting. Flying time is a good and dangerous truth. Sometimes i just cant wait to be 24 and know more about myself, loving the poor, where i want to work, and more about God. but you can also spend this time wishing your life away, quite literally. I wish it was tomorrow everyday until today has no more tomorrows. So you must be careful and savor each moment. Even the sucky moments.

Lesson 5. Balance. When i first started work i would be so exhausted i would eat dinner and sleep and go to work the next day. Slowly one must learn to do other things during those 5 hours after work.

5pm-6pm The traveling time to get home. A good time to talk on the cell phone
6-7 - cooking/debreifing the day with roommates/eating the food you cooked
7-8 dishes/bills/necesities/8-9 prayer/singing/laughing/grocery shopping/cleaning the bathroom/taking out the trash/making papusas with your neighbor
9-10 get ready for bed, read a book, or a million other things

So it never works out like this exactly. theres always more to be done. and other things that interupt your day. But i've learned how to do more things on my time off from work than just sleep. and that is good.

I've joined a gym.

Los Angeles is my backyard

This city has no slogan, you can mess with it and it falls asleep every night, and sometimes during the afternoons too. At various times. It has no signature mass transit. But it is in the sunshine state, it’s a jealous 70 degrees year round. Los Angeles is also the capital outside of the capital. Meaning we have the most Koreans outside of Korea(?maybe second to Brazil). The Guatemalans outside of Guatemala, The most Ethiopians outside of Ethiopia. and more! There are over 70 languages spoken here. I've heard it said that All that cultural rubbing up against each other causes the intersection of Vermont and _ the most accident prone intersection

However in the social sciences it has a slogan. “The city that is 10 years ahead of other cities”. Being 10 years ahead of every other city is not like you’re son skipping grades because he’s so dang smart. Its more like a science experiment that got out of control. From a calculated distance the experts take notes and send Morris code to the other major cities around the country. Watch out for this. Be careful when you see signs of this. It happened in LA, it could happen to you. In 1992 there was a race riot, bread riot, burning down the streets. So Chicago, Baltimore, Philly, and San Fran watch out about the race tensions,and let the poor people think you are doing something to help them so they don’t get so unsatisfied they start stealing bread and widescreen TVs.


And it is my home now, in a new way. I live, pay rent and taxes here. I care about the bigger picture. From 6 mos to 3 years and 5 to 18 years I lived in some part of LA but couldn’t see beyond my backyard, when I had a backyard or past the freeway, when the freeway was my backyard. Now it feels like all of Los Angeles is my back yard.

Today is the day

Hi Blog world...

today i gave gracie a beaded vest. she is a teacher so i think she should wear it.

we have just discovered that we like to interrupt eachother with thoughts of ourselves. this is not a good blog post but, i got to learn one way.

Do you rub your feet and then smell your fingers, my housemate does.

Good night...

p.s. I read this book by a blogger called reallivepreacher.com